griffindragon

i got my internet back! yay.


i also got a job at Hollywood Casino where i live. so yay, 11 bucks an hour job. i has a happy. so things are starting to look up for a change.


i also had a few strange dreams, but one that stuck in my head is one where i turned into a werewolf, and i could actually feel the changes happening to me. it was wild. my fur was black.

so here i am trying to get money to eat tonight... i'm trying to donate plasma to get money to eat, yet they keep withholding information so i have to make 3/4 trips back and forth to get the things i need.... by the third trip i give up because i don't have the things i need yet again.... my friend cannot donate until November, and the second plasma place i go to isn't accepting new donors at this time.


so i don't get to eat tonight. i don't care. i can starve.


i have a job at Hollywood Casino, but i start Monday, and getting there is going to be a huge issue because i don't have any money for gas. i also cannot pay my rent because i was out of a job for a month, and i haven't payed my utility bills because of lack of money.


so i'm about to get kicked out because of life taking a shit on me. life just completely shits on me.... been doing it for 7 years, i've had to fight for this craphole apartment, and for every-goddamn-thing i've ever had. i've literally had to fight tooth and nail just for BASIC NEEDS. i'm about to just give up. why should i care anymore when life hates me?

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since Reagle indirectly tagged me with that thing.

my Airport job of a year and a half has come to an end. by what you ask? by attendance. the last time i was late, was February. two days ago, i was late, because my alarm decided to not go off and make me late. so, whatever. i don't need a job. (i do, just being a pessimist, as i always am).


so yeah, no job for me. i guess i aint allowed to really get a nice career of my own. i have to fight for every fucking thing i goddamn have, even an 8 dollar an hour job, at 35 hours a week. not even fucking 40. and i was full time. making minimum goddamn wage, had to fight for that job. (i was a baggage handler. other airlines make 10 bucks an hour. us? 8. not even 40 hours. 35. per week.) Jetstream ground services can suck my dick. same for US Airways.


much love to my manager and supervisors though, best i've had in a while. anyone above my station manager, nope.


so yeah, job hunting. i applied to COTA (Central Ohio Transit Authority), and the Shuttle Bus company that takes care of the shuttles at CMH airport. noone's called me. i might have to go to a Staffing agency again. AKA Temp service, just to get by. why would anyone hire a guy that has 7 years in the army, and 1 1/2 years at the airport? *intended sarcasm*

never gonna get a steady career... gonna have to fight to keep a minimum wage job and mediocre bullshit kill myself life my entire fucking life.


*yes i'm suseptible to bouts of emo. don't give a shit*

i recently got the Vibram Five Fingers(hereto referred as VFF) at Champ Sports at Easton Town Center in columbus. i spent 90 bucks, it was rather expensive but HOLY SHIT SO WORTH IT. it's a very tight fit, which it supposed to be. the VFF's are form fitting to your foot, much like a good pair of gloves for your hands. they are so comfortable it's crazy. i got the KSO's, solid black shoe with breathable material on the instep, and a grippy rubber sole on the bottom, bout 3mm thickness at it's thickest. the VFF's even form to the arch of my foot. i love these things. best 90 bucks i ever spent. the type of shoe i've always wanted, because i love going barefoot. these things are awesome.


vibram has got it right with the type of shoe we should be wearing, because they have it build so you can slide each toe into it's appropriate slot in the shoe, JUST like gloves. you don't really need socks with em either. (granted, work boots still have a market because of dangerous workplaces... ) i've always wanted a pair of these, and now i feel my want is justified. Vibram got it right, i love this company.